Manténgase fuera del alcance de los niños

It's fucking warm in the Netherlands now. Last week it was "wool coat and scarf" weather.. now i'm wearing t-shirt and shorts with a fair amount of sweat. I guess i can't complain about the weather; now we can always play football regardless of the conditions. And instead of snow ball fights, we will have water-balloon fights! HAHA.

Alright, the new block's started up, and my classes seem rather challenging but in an interesting way this time... i'm not sure if I should keep both however: i have the same professor for both classes, and it feels like practically the same course (and not exactly a simple one at that). So i might be looking into dropping one. who cares though (not you that is).

In other news, I'm going to Berlin, Germany from friday till wednesday. That will be fun. I've been told Berlin is a great city, for the history and the atmosphere. I'll be going with my Italian and Spanish friends, a greek friend, and Maria (of course). With these people, i could go to a junk yard and have fun--so I know Berlin will be fuckin amazing.

The week after my return from Germany, Kristen will be visiting me for a little under a week--- sickity! I want to make sure she has a blast here (though, i don't think this will be difficult). Altogether, the month of May is going to be rather busy with fun--bringing me back to the idea that I might want to drop one of my courses for a less intense course.

I have post cards I want to send to people...
I have gifts that I will be giving to people upon my return...
I'm not sure when I will return--I plan on visiting Spain before I do.

It's strange how, in such a short amount of time, I've become so close with Maria. It makes me nervous. Maybe I'm afraid of getting hurt, or hurting her. I'm always questioning not only her feelings, but mine as well. If my mind was turned off for a second I'd probably enjoy myself 10 times more, but it's hard for me to trust somebody intimately.. since Jacqui broke up with me it has become difficult (I know, Let it go Zack!). Outside of me psyching myself out, I think i'm most realistically afraid of truly finding something as special as this and having to let go of it. I'm comfortable with her.. and I'm uncomfortable without her-- it's as if her presence in the same room allows me to breath more deeply. Sometimes i'm afraid that maybe she doesn't feel the same, but if we go most of the day without seeing one another I'm overwhelmed with joy when we meet because she will sigh out of relief, saying how much she's missed me.

What am I going to do? Should something like this have an expiration date only because I have to go back to the States? I don't want a long distance relationship (nor does she). I know Maria plans on visiting me.. and I know that I love Europe.......

My Spanish has been improving.. sorta. (it's basically "keep away from children" if you're wondering)
I know how to cook.
I want to move out of my house.
WTF.

PS: I miss my friends and family, I miss UNH and eating in a dining hall, I can't wait to be back in the US just so I can feel the sensation of how different everything is.
PPS: I miss my guitar more than I miss my mom (only because my mom loves me enough to visit me, and my guitar is an ungrateful yet beautiful instrument)